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Sunday, May 29, 2011

plans change.


remember how we were going to go to law school?  well… as the great robert burns so aptly wrote: “the best laid plans of mice and men [often go awry]."

despite having many things go our way, planning tirelessly, even being admitted to schools we wanted to go to, we’re just not convinced it's a good fit at this time.  we were admitted to Santa Clara – the school we felt would actually be the best academic fit for us, with its focus concentrating on High Tech Intellectual Property law.  only days later, after excitedly planning where we would live, when we would move, seth came to me expressing his doubts about law school being the smartest move for us.

quite honestly, i was rather shocked.  for as long as ive known seth – i thought this is what he wanted to do.  id been so supportive of law school up until this point because the most important thing to me is that seth is doing something he loves.  if this was his dream, of course i was going to be 110% supportive. 

after discussing all the pros and cons – we could find very few pros for attending law school, and a plethora of cons.  additionally, the cons were things that actually got us excited about our future – whereas the pros were based on possibilities, not necessarily actualities – and in and of themselves did not seem very compelling.

for those who know me well, who better to understand seth's decision to reconsider law school than me?  as i heard him working through it, i was reminded so much of my own struggle regarding law school.  i think we can both see that although a fascinating field of study, we may both be better off by knowing we could, and choosing not to. 

after we discussed things, we felt it best to not make any rash decisions and have continued to pursue law school as an option while we labor to determine what is the very best thing for our family.  just the prospect of law school is stressful, whereas this other option fills me with excitement for the future.  i know the future wont be perfect – bringing with it any number of challenges that may change our plans.  but i feel good about this. happy about it. excited. 

it feels to good to be married to someone who has a good head on his shoulders – willing to change his plans, even after putting so much of himself into something (stressing about the LSAT, stressing about the application process, etc.) i am so grateful that he truly is looking out for the best interest of our family and doesn’t want to put us in a stressful position for nothing. 

being able to reevaluate your plans and adapt for the future isnt usually the easiest course of action.  most of the time, its just easier to move forward with a plan, just because its been the plan for so long.  if we arent constantly asking ourselves what is in the best interest for us and our families, i think we may really be missing out on making great things happen.  how many opportunities for growth are missed because we simply want to maintain the status quo?  seth so rightly said, "what is life all about anyway?" i think if we ask ourselves that question more often, we will find more of God in our lives, and be able to rejoice in the many ways we are blessed through His guidance.   

could we really have put all our school years behind us??? stay tuned!

xx

1 comment:

Sheri E. said...

Wow, this is a pretty big change. But it sounds like you've really thought it through. Planning for the future is fun, but not always easy. I'm excited to hear what's next for Janae and Seth. If he wants to take up corn farming, you could always come here to Indiana...